I am discovering today - as I vacuum and tidy up in preparation for a guest - that I am primarily intellectual. That doesn't mean I discount the physical, emotional and spiritual facets of being. They are essential contributors to my intellectual power. But my fulfillment will come mainly in the intellectual realm, and primarily as a philosopher. Therein lies the heart and soul of me.

Take time to tie your shoe properly

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The other day I was tying my shoe. I noticed a peculiar quality to the act, a shift in perception that intrigued me. Time had slowed, even though I was manipulating the laces with as much purpose, dexterity and speed as usual. At that precise moment I didn't really want to be doing anything else. I had an appointment to get to, and was suiting up to jump on the Scarabeo (my scooter), so I should have been in my usual hurry...

But the sensation of the shoe laces, running through my fingers fascinated me, and the tick of the wrapped lace ends against the black leather uppers. When I gripped the lace and pulled to tighten, I became aware of a pleasing equilibrium to the act: muscle counterpoised against muscle, bone against bone, thought against thought. I wanted that sensation to never end, to elongate into a session of spiritual shoe lacing of indeterminate duration.

You can't loiter in the downstairs washroom of your office for ever, of course. That's where my locker is, in the downstairs washroom. I could be intruded upon at any moment. So the Zen of shoe-lacing would have to be bracketed by start and end points. I chose to ignore the inevitable priorities of practical living, however. If pleasure cannot be extruded beyond the limits of necessity, perhaps it can be enjoyed in the infinite interstices of a here and now. If you keep dividing a second between the tickings of your watch, does it go on forever? Can you become all knowing in the blink of an eye?

No one has ever accused me of that! But still...

Once one shoe was done, I still had another. That's the beauty of tying shoes. There's two of them so forever can be twice as long as you initially expected. In the midst of this celebratory shoe tying activity I remembered my father's impatience. Perhaps I should have spelled 'father' with a capital F, because all Fathers are capitalized, are they not? One of the lessons he imparted to me at a relatively early age was to 'Stop Daydreaming!' Dad wouldn't shout this. He would always say it with an amused, kindly look. But he meant it. If you daydream too much, life passes you by, was the implication.

Was he wrong? Is it not possible that daydreaming back-fills our lives with infinite possibilities? Do some of the saints amongst us discover that you can layer an infinite number of dimensions into one here-and-now if you become an adept - if you 'wash your bowls' with intensity and delight? Without letting the tug of somewhere else in some future time distract you? Can you see an atom whirling in a grain of clay, and understand that it's a universe all its own, yet nothing but an idea?

Tug, over-under, pull again, loop, wrap, poke the second strand through, tug again to tighten the knot. There! Done!

I wonder if anyone would notice if I untied my shoes and started over again? Who knows, maybe I already have, and I'm stuck in some kind of infinite shoe tying regression!

What is Spirit?

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Spirit is:

• Indivisible
• Inherent
• Eminent
• Uncreated
• Dimensionless
• Timeless
• Glorious

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Conscious Equilibrium

My state of mind at any given moment is an equilibrium determined by the gravities of the physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual nodes of experience.

For example, if someone jabs me with a sharp object, I immediately feel pain and my state of mind zooms toward the physical. Instinctively I move away from the source of the pain, then look to see what caused it. Now my intellectual and emotional nodes engage. I hate pain, so right away I am angry. That anger might be quelled if my intellectual interpretation of the event contradicts the instinctive reaction. For example, if the person jabbing me happens to be an old lady, carelessly managing her umbrella in the lineup for a bus, I might laugh instead of commenting sharply. I will be even more inclined to 'forgive' if I have developed my spiritual capacity for placing individual instances into a larger context.

The weight of all these stimuli pull me towards an equilibrium different from my initial response to any event. The Tetrahedron helps me see that my conscious equilibrium can be shifted - that I can learn to respond differently to things that happen in my life, and to better understand the responses of those around me.

Tetrahedron

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The Tetrahedron is a schematic for understanding how individuated spirit experiences the world. Nodes of the Tetrahedron are:

• Physical (Pleasure, Pain)
• Emotional (Love, Hate)
• Intellectual (Right, Wrong)
• Spiritual (Infinite, Finite)

It is important to bear in mind that the Tetrahedron does not exist. It is merely a framework for describing the channels of consciousness. I believe this model encompasses everything individuated spirit has believed or is capable of believing.

Knowledge transcends this limited, temporal framework.

The limits of human belief have been transcended by great mystics and prophets throughout history. However, they are never able to describe their experiences to the less enlightened, and have always resorted to fables and parables as guideposts for the rest of us. Their transcendent knowledge is often appropriated by The Old Men in Robes, who use religious systems as a means of consolidating political power.

The connection between the individual and the divine is through the Spiritual Node; but the Spiritual Node cannot exist without the other three.